Sad...Hubby is away

hmmm...today, i am sad...hubby is off to kl today after work..he left about
he left about 3 pm today...i dont even want to mention about it. we had dinner at chillis last nite...oh yes..he had the combo fajitas and i have to agree that it was nice...mine was ok..i had the mushroom burger..well..i x managed to finish it off..it was huge...cut it into 4 pieces and yet i only managed to eat one. so you guys can imagine how big it was...
i kinda sad as i have to reconcile the time that he is not with me...well i guess i just have to pre-occupy myself for tonite or nevertheless i'll get bored..i hope he knows what he is doing and i just hope that everything would be over...
i am tired of all this...i have to admit that ...i wish i he knew what is inside my heart....i just dont want to be pushy and yet on the other hand losing my battle...all i want is him in my life..
hope he will arrives there safely and as for my, for the first time in my life i will be travelling alone all by myself and without him near me...goshh...i miss him so much...that i could never express it by words.
cant wait to see him tomorrow when he picks me up there. oh yeah, did i mention that i am taking the earliest bas off? yeah...it 7.30 am in the morning and i am taking plus liner...
will update more when i come back from my weekend holiday ok..
hubby,
how i wish what is inside my deep heart
i dont wanna loose you and yet i dont wanna hold you back.

my best fren not aroud

ala..bosan ah hari ni..my bespren g, dah balik kl over for weekend..rasa tak der geng ah nakkkkkkk melepak cam selalu..hmmm..mesti arini balik awai...eh..lupa lak..i posa...hmmm..kena pi kat hubby dulu...yuhoooooooo...dia nak belanja i buka posa arini...

emm..nampak gayanya..jadi gud gal la i arini..lepas makan balik rumah...lepak....

i am over tired plak minggu ni over the weekend...tak tahu napa....letih sangat...i keep on complaining..that i am tired tho..too much..my body is exhausted...hi...

kan best kalau hubby belanja pi makan angin over the weekend....hopefully we are travelling to somewhere then....but of cos la..i dont want to be t one driving....emm..hubby me memang suka dera me...bawak keta....dia memang...manja...tome sangat..bila dia manja..macam anak beruang me...ahaksssssssss

eh lupa lak...emmm...arini me letak gambar kawin me yang cun ni ...saja..rindu tengok suamiku yang ensem lagi macho ni..ahaksssss....dulu kurus...sekarang...sudah ada itu "prut" juga..tetapi tetap menjadi pujaan hatiku...walllaaaaaaaa....

somewhere then...

-live life to the fullest-

Falling in Love

It is a mystery why we fall in love. It is a mystery how it happens. It is a mystery when it comes. It is a mystery why some love grows and it is a mystery why some love fails. You can analyze this mystery and look for reasons and causes but you will never do anymore than take the life out of the experience. Just as life itself is more than the sum of the bones and muscles and electrical impulses in the body, love is more than the sum of the interests and attractions and commonalities that two people share. And just as life itself is a gift that comes and goes in its own time, so too, the coming of love must be taken as an unfathomable gift that cannot be questioned in its ways. Sometimes, hopefully at least once in your life, the gift of love will come to you in full flower, and you will take hold of it and celebrate it in all inexpressible beauty. This is the dream we all share. More often, it will come and take hold of you, celebrate you for a brief moment, then move on. When this happens to young people, they too often try to grasp the love and hold it to them, refusing to see that it is a gift that is freely given and a gift that just as freely, moves away. When they fall out of love, or the person they love feels the spirit of love leaving, they try desperately to reclaim the love that is lost rather than accepting the gift for what it was, then moving on. They want answers where there are no answers. They want to know what is wrong in them that makes the other person no longer love them, or they try to get their lover to change, thinking that if some small thing were different, love would bloom again. They blame their circumstances and say that if they go far away and start a new life together, their love will grow. They try anything to give meaning to what has happened. But there is no meaning beyond the love itself, and until they accept its own mysterious ways, they live in a sea of misery. You need to know this about love, and to accept it. You need to treat what it brings you with kindness. If you find yourself in love with someone who does not love you, be gentle with yourself. There is nothing wrong with you. Love just didn’t choose to rest in the other person’s heart. If you find someone else in love with you and you don’t love him, feel honoured that love came and called at your door, but gently refuse the gift you cannot return. Do not take advantage; do not cause pain. How you deal with love is how you deal with you, and all our hearts feel the same pains and joys, even if our lives and ways are different. If you fall in love with another, and he falls in love with you, and then love chooses to leave, do not try to reclaim it or to assess blame. Let it go. There is a reason and there is a meaning. You will know in time. Remember that you don’t choose love. Love chooses you. All you can really do is accept it for all its mystery when it comes into your life. Feel the way it fills you to overflowing, then reach out and give it away. Give it back to the person who brought it alive in you. Give it to others who deem it poor in spirit. Give it to the world around you in anyway you can. That is where many lovers go wrong. Having been so long without love, they understand love only as a need. They see their hearts as empty places that will be filled by love, and they begin to look at love as something that flows to them rather than from them. The first blush of new love is filled to overflowing, but as their love cools, they revert to seeing their love as a need. They cease to be someone who generates love and instead become someone who seeks love. They forget that the secret of love is that it is a gift, and that it can be made to grow only by giving it away. Remember this, and keep it to your heart. Love has its own time, its own seasons, and its own reason for coming and going. You cannot bribe it or coerce it, or reason it into staying. You can only embrace it when it arrives and give it away when it comes to you. But if it chooses to leave from your heart or from the heart of your lover, there is nothing you can do and there is nothing you should do. Love always has been and always will be a mystery. Be glad that it came to live for a moment in your life. IF YOU KEEP YOUR HEART OPEN, IT WILL COME AGAIN.

bored to death

nah...dah lama tak post out blog kat sini..been very bz lately..yeah...bz ngan my own stuff..balik kerja, then g melepak..sampai rumah dah kat pukul 12..it has been 3 days straight man...

my hubby lak cirit birit baru ni...emm..silap makan la tu..tak nak makan kat umah..asyik nak makan kat kedai mamak jer...mana tak sakit perut..tu la..cakap i tak nak dengar...hish...susah susah...

plan of going off to somewhere with hubby next weekend during merdeka...but we'll c how ...

-live life to the fullest-

wat a day to start

wat a nice day to start off with...it was raining last nite and still continues up to early morning....i was very lazy to go to office and yet thinking of there are so many things to be done...thus i have to pick up my lazy butt to the bathroom and had my early morning chill shower....

sleep tru inside the car...and reached office almost 9am....

hey, its friday today and seriously i am not in the mood to do anything...just would like to hanky panky around while waiting to go back in the evening...

hmm...thinking of going over for swimming or sauna...but we'll see how the whether would be...

~i c u you when i c u again~